A Summer To Look Forward To...

Heylo world. It's late at night. I really should be sleeping, but I'm up...trying to memorize drug names among other things. Now why am I memorizing drugs and studying at this hour? Well, I'm trying to get a pharmacy technician license (even though I really don't know what that'll do for me)

To recap, my plan #1 to go to grad school and do work in drug discovery was shot down....twice.

1. I applied for an EAP singapore internship in drug discovery. I was really looking forward to living in Singapore and even considering the prospect of moving there permanently. But, there was a record number of applicants, miscommunication between A*STAR and EAP, and many many delays. I did not discover that I was accepted into the program until 20 days after the notification deadline T_T and the program dates were changed to end in September...as opposed to August. Also, I didn't get my program of choice. All things considered, I decided that this was another reason to stay and work in the lab over the summer.

2. I went to a pre-pharmcy symposium. Right after that, I had a very interesting/sudden/provoking conversation via telephone which strongly made me ask myself, "Am I cut out for graduate school?" And I really don't know the answer to that question. So, I decided to fall back on pharmacy and keep pharm school as another option. This could mean dropping my minor, taking extra classes, and volunteering at a hospital. This is also the reason for the pharm tech thingy X_X

 The door to drug discovery experience was closed, and various arrows illuminated the path to pharmacy. Now don't misunderstand...I still am unsure which path is going to work out. (or maybe there is a plan C) But, I'm going to stick with it until God tells me otherwise.

 It was really interesting. When I found out that I could be rejected from the Singapore program, I felt my heart become lighter. Even though it was my dream, it had become nothing more than a burden, another expectation, and manifested itself as a nightmare. Now, I'm working in the lab, and I'm very glad that I didn't go. It's tricky work, but I'm definitely more familiar with the people, the science, and the environment. Also, I don't feel as expendable as I did last summer. If I or the other Mass Spec person had not been here this summer, the lab would have hired someone else to do the job. It's just been a nice time building friendships with the people in lab. During the school year, it's harder to get to know these people, but that's what summer is for :P CARDIO KICKBOXING XD

 My only complaint would be this sense of distraction. I know I need to study for so many things, but I really want to take a break after the last semester. It was a bit rougher than usual, but it turned out better than expected (PTL) So, that's what my daily bread is for ^_^

 I also finally got someone to teach me how to do things at the gym! So, I'm really happy about that. However, I'll be running a marathon later in the year, so I don't want to put on too much more weight. Oh and the Lord works in mysterious ways. My interview at the hospital was cancelled. At first I was very very distraught, but now that I think about it, it's probably for the best. I already have a lot on my plate, so I can worry about volunteering in July.

 OOOOOOOh...and now I can use children's card game metaphors: Someone has played Final Countdown. Or at least, it feels like it. And frankly, I'm a bit anxious to open up the deck and see what plays I can make. At the same time, the cards in my hand definitely won't be enough...maybe. Right now I'm waiting on my next draw. "Destiny Draw" or "Shining Draw" anyone? XD All I know is that I can trust in the Lord's plan for me. He'll place whatever card is needed for His victory on the top of the deck. And that'll be enough for me. (Who knows? It could be a counter-trap that negates [and DESTROYS] Final Countdown :P)

 These next 80 days or so are days that I look forward to. Why? I'm at the crossroads of life and for some reason, I feel like this summer is going to count in more ways that I could imagine. I'm excited to see what God has in store, definitely a bit worried too, but it'll be alright. Let's hope this solar reactor is more responsive in the summer :P